It’s hard being with someone who has physically and emotionally put you through so much. To continue the relationship without having to think of the past. Every action. Every word. You can’t avoid it. It will always lead back to how things use to be, no matter how good things currently are. It’s a permanent scar, and will take more than a few ‘I love you’ to heal it. More than a few presents to forget it. And definitely more than just cuddles to feel secure again.